She's always been more comfortable with people hating her. [ ... ] She did it for Byleth's sake, not anyone else's. But I don't think she was alright making that choice even if she thought it was the right one.
[ yeah she won't like this. there's kind of that feeling before he decides to just go for it; ]
I closed myself off from people and projected an image to keep them away because I wanted to be seen as mature and reliable, someone who could do everything on my own.
I mentioned how I grew up alone, right? I couldn't rely on anyone. But it wasn't just that. The few people who did help always ended up having some ulterior motive. They didn't give a damn about me. Everyone... no matter what, they'd always betray me.
[there's a growing tension and bitterness alongside those memories.]
So now it's easier to push them away before you get hurt again?
[ there's nothing mean about it despite how, yeah, this is a mean thing to say, only a kind of feeling of understanding. yamato didn't have it that hard, but that doesn't change that he recognizes those feelings perfectly.
and also that part of him is like, absolutely indignant people did that to rita ]
[ it didn't make him less lonely, he doesn't add, though now yamato thinks he has bullied Rita's feelings enough and there's a shrug as he draws back ]
I'm not saying what we went through was the same at all, or that we are, even. Just... I get it.
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I just can't accept that kind of crap.
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[ instead of the ancient 17, listen, also yes he's aware catra was older than him ]
So that wouldn't surprise me.
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You do know you're one year older than me, right?
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I closed myself off from people and projected an image to keep them away because I wanted to be seen as mature and reliable, someone who could do everything on my own.
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Th... that's not the only reason-- I mean, that's not the reason!
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So what's the reason, then?
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[there's a growing tension and bitterness alongside those memories.]
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[ there's nothing mean about it despite how, yeah, this is a mean thing to say, only a kind of feeling of understanding. yamato didn't have it that hard, but that doesn't change that he recognizes those feelings perfectly.
and also that part of him is like, absolutely indignant people did that to rita ]
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[yeah, she's not going to completely deny that.]
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[ there's something a little sheepish because he still falls back to it sometimes, but he'll press on: ]
It's a pretty lonely way to live.
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[she has a bit of a kneejerk reaction to that, a defensive feeling.]
I always had the blastia, at least.
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[ it didn't make him less lonely, he doesn't add, though now yamato thinks he has bullied Rita's feelings enough and there's a shrug as he draws back ]
I'm not saying what we went through was the same at all, or that we are, even. Just... I get it.
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there is a feeling of familiarity in what he says.]
... Hmph.
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... Well, all that was just to say, Catra reminded me of that, too. So it stands to reason the two of you clashed so much.